6w6d pg - First Scan (pic added)

I was supposed to have my first ultrasound tomorrow morning but, as I had feared, the clinic rang me today to reschedule as the OB had an "emergency procedure" tomorrow. I almost had a meltdown! In the end they managed to fit me in this afternoon which was a huge relief!

The Dr ended up admitting that the "emergency procedure" was a TV appearance :-/ and he was a bit embarrassed for the inconvenience it caused me.

Anyway, cut to the chase.. We have a baby, a yolk sac & a flickering heart! Yay! But the Dr knows that won't relax me as we saw a heartbeat last time & lost it after that. So he's getting me back in 2 weeks for another scan which is great.

I'm happy for now. This one looks different, looks good, & I'm going to enjoy that for now.
The nausea is also a comfort strangely.. although I haven't barfed.. yet.

6w1d PG - Careful What You Wish For

So I wanted more symptoms... and I got them!

Yesterday, 6 weeks to the day, I had the most HORRENDOUS headache I've had in years!! And along with that came the nausea. I was working out on location, trying to battle through, with everyone offering me various drugs, including Nurofen. Of course I made excuses that I was just dehydrated & I'd try to drink more water. Truth was I didn't have any paracetamol with me. Big mistake! Then I caught a lift home with some colleagues & had to sit in the middle of the back seat. That's when the nausea hit me. Great timing. I had the new girl on one side of me firing constant questions at me, and a stack of equipment the other side of me. So no escape. I managed to stifle the retching until we got back to work. Thank God! I was terrified of throwing up in the car with nowhere to turn.

Last night I was in so much pain I had to take 2 panadol. It finally eased the headache but the nausea continued all night. Today was my day off but I spent it lazing around & napping to catch up on my restless night. Fingers crossed I'm better tomorrow as I have another job on location and another trip in a car surrounded by boisterous colleagues. This time I'll have the panadol with me & a plastic bag for "emergencies". I'm dreading it.

Boobs are still mighty sore - they hurt when I roll over in bed. And my skin is breaking out again.

Be careful what you wish for!

ICSI #3 - 5w2d Blubbering Mess

I have cried roughly 12 times in the past 2 days.. for no reason.. ok, one reason was that we were watching Young Talent Time & a cute little Asian girl sang Adele's Someone Like You. I balled. I'm officially pathetic.

Boobs hurt a little.. perhaps from all the squeezing.. from me.. to see if they hurt.

That's all.

ICSI #3 - 5w1d pg

Who was I kidding in my last post?

Every day.. in fact EVERY TIME I go to the toilet I stress out.

I expect to see blood.

I keep wondering WHEN it's going to happen, not IF.

I feel totally different this pregnancy from the last time. That should give me some comfort. But I have regular aches & pains in my lower back & stomach, and they aren't reassuring. I didn't have ANY pains the last time and so the blood was totally out of the blue! I don't want to be caught off guard this time.. but obviously I don't want it to happen at all.

My breasts are a little achey but not a lot. I think I see more veins but then I think I'm just imagining them. My nipples are definitely sore to the touch but that could just be from the remnants of the progesterone supplements. I ran out of them before my blood test but (TMI warning) I'm still getting clumps coming out once in a while.

Two more weeks until my first ultrasound. It's one obstacle to overcome - seeing a heartbeat. But I know from experience this isn't the guarantee. There's so many more to come. 

I'm sorry to all those still going through the IVF process who might think I'm ungrateful. I'm not. It's just a long journey & I won't be relaxed or come to terms with it until I have that baby in my arms. It's a long way off.

It's Official! ICSI #3 - 4w4d pg

Well the blood test (beta) came back positive! Woo!

My HCG was 2793 @ 13dp5dt (I think.. my pen wouldn't work straight away, but it was definitely in the 2000s). My due date is November 10, 2012. Let's just hope this one's normal & sticks.. at the moment I feel pretty good about that.

I'm still feeling pretty run down. I didn't sleep much last night & woke up super early with stomach pains. When I got up to pee I had another bout of (TMI) the runs (sorry). I also had what I think is reflux & heartburn. Basically I just felt really uncomfortable & cranky. The nurse worried me a bit this morning when she said that could all be a sign of AF coming, as well as being pregnant. But thank goodness it was the latter.

DP is being a bit reserved and cautious at the moment. He doesn't want to see us crash & burn again. But I'm going to enjoy this. I don't want my baby picking up on any negative vibes.

This is the one. It HAS to be :-)

12dp5dt update

I just got home today after a few days interstate for work. I am SOOOooo glad to be home! I am simply exhausted!!

The work was long and gruelling & I had absolutely NO energy. I felt like I'd been hit by a truck. I just felt "blah". I wasn't nauseous as such.. but I definitely felt "off". I've had almost constant light AF pains in my lower back & abdomen. On top of that I've been so bloated & gassy! See pics below:

The first one was about 4 days ago, the second one was taken last night:

I normally have a flat(ish) stomach so even the first one is big for me. The second one was so painful! I felt like I was going to explode.

TMI Warning now... 

I had a bit of diarrhoea on Saturday night after going out to dinner with a friend. I had seafood & she said she thought you shouldn't eat seafood when you're pg. I said it was fine in moderation. But after my bout in the loo I got a bit worried. Although it passed soon after.

So, fast forward to tonight & I'm finally home & hap-hap-happy! To top it off I did another HPT & the "pregnant" test line was heaps darker than the control line! Yay! I'm still pregnant!

Blood test (beta) is tomorrow. Looking forward to it :)

ICSI #3 - 8dp5dt HPT result

I peed into a container first thing this morning but almost couldn't bring myself to test! I spent an hour googling "how to prepare for a BFN"! But the general advice was that there was no way to prepare.

I finally summoned up the courage to test (despite my heart jumping out of my chest) and here it is:





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UPDATE: Here's the pic.. I was in such a state I couldn't figure out to how to upload the photo properly!