June 26, 2012

The Good and the Bad (20wks+4)

OK - first the good:
DP FINALLY felt Malibu kick this morning!
Thank goodness! I was kept awake a lot last night cos I couldn't get comfortable, and all my tossing & turning kept bub active. I could feel him/her doing somersaults which made me a bit nauseous (though it weirdly also made me happy) and constantly kicking or punching. I guess the whole block of chocolate I polished off yesterday didn't help the situation.

Now the bad:
DP seemed excited to feel bub kick but immediately jumped back to his couch. I was a bit bewildered. I asked him if it freaked him out (keep in mind he's already had 2 children from a previous marriage) but he said it was great, he just didn't want to hurt the baby. On top of all this, and more to the point, we haven't been intimate much since I fell pregnant. I am so frustrated LOL. I confronted him about it today but tried to stay calm & understanding. I asked if he was turned off by my belly, or if he was worried about hurting the baby. He said it was neither, he just hadn't felt like it. I feel neglected. And now I feel like a bitch for getting angry at him & making him feel bad about it. I just don't know what to do. I'm so depressed today. Wish everything was as good as it was before, and I hate thinking that when I'm so happy to be pregnant now.