May 8, 2011

It's Over - even before the BFN.

No more waiting. I'm not pregnant.

I had to travel interstate for work. I thought I was having pregnancy symptoms. I felt nauseous, had veiny boobs, trouble sleeping, cried at the drop of a hat, acne breakout, but had no AF cramping. So I bought a pregnancy test. I brought it back to the hotel room and, as it was an early detection one, I tested that afternoon. Unfortunately I couldn't pee much so I barely wet the stick. Nothing happened for a while. I left it for about 30 mins & when I looked there was a bold test line & nothing else. But I figured that was only because I didn't pee enough. I figured I'd test first thing in the morning.

The next morning I went to the loo, only to find my period had just started. Bright red blood. No chance of this being implantation spotting or anything like that. I still have the stupid beta blood test tomorrow, for what it's worth.


I'm numb. I haven't even cried about it. I sent a text to DP as I didn't want to wake him up. He called me back straight away and was really caring & lovely about it. He was disappointed too.

Back to the drawing board. I don't know why I let myself be positive. I'm always better being pessimistic, cos then I'm not too disappointed.

We'll try again. But for now I have to take a month's break before the Doc will let me try again.

Talk to you soon.