March 10, 2012

ICSI #3 - 5w1d pg

Who was I kidding in my last post?

Every day.. in fact EVERY TIME I go to the toilet I stress out.
I expect to see blood.
I keep wondering WHEN it's going to happen, not IF.

I feel totally different this pregnancy from the last time. That should give me some comfort. But I have regular aches & pains in my lower back & stomach, and they aren't reassuring. I didn't have ANY pains the last time and so the blood was totally out of the blue! I don't want to be caught off guard this time.. but obviously I don't want it to happen at all.

My breasts are a little achey but not a lot. I think I see more veins but then I think I'm just imagining them. My nipples are definitely sore to the touch but that could just be from the remnants of the progesterone supplements. I ran out of them before my blood test but (TMI warning) I'm still getting clumps coming out once in a while.

Two more weeks until my first ultrasound. It's one obstacle to overcome - seeing a heartbeat. But I know from experience this isn't the guarantee. There's so many more to come. 

I'm sorry to all those still going through the IVF process who might think I'm ungrateful. I'm not. It's just a long journey & I won't be relaxed or come to terms with it until I have that baby in my arms. It's a long way off.

March 6, 2012

It's Official! ICSI #3 - 4w4d pg

Well the blood test (beta) came back positive! Woo!

My HCG was 2793 @ 13dp5dt (I think.. my pen wouldn't work straight away, but it was definitely in the 2000s). My due date is November 10, 2012. Let's just hope this one's normal & sticks.. at the moment I feel pretty good about that.

I'm still feeling pretty run down. I didn't sleep much last night & woke up super early with stomach pains. When I got up to pee I had another bout of (TMI) the runs (sorry). I also had what I think is reflux & heartburn. Basically I just felt really uncomfortable & cranky. The nurse worried me a bit this morning when she said that could all be a sign of AF coming, as well as being pregnant. But thank goodness it was the latter.

DP is being a bit reserved and cautious at the moment. He doesn't want to see us crash & burn again. But I'm going to enjoy this. I don't want my baby picking up on any negative vibes.

This is the one. It HAS to be :-)

March 5, 2012

12dp5dt update

I just got home today after a few days interstate for work. I am SOOOooo glad to be home! I am simply exhausted!!

The work was long and gruelling & I had absolutely NO energy. I felt like I'd been hit by a truck. I just felt "blah". I wasn't nauseous as such.. but I definitely felt "off". I've had almost constant light AF pains in my lower back & abdomen. On top of that I've been so bloated & gassy! See pics below:

The first one was about 4 days ago, the second one was taken last night:

I normally have a flat(ish) stomach so even the first one is big for me. The second one was so painful! I felt like I was going to explode.

TMI Warning now... 

I had a bit of diarrhoea on Saturday night after going out to dinner with a friend. I had seafood & she said she thought you shouldn't eat seafood when you're pg. I said it was fine in moderation. But after my bout in the loo I got a bit worried. Although it passed soon after.

So, fast forward to tonight & I'm finally home & hap-hap-happy! To top it off I did another HPT & the "pregnant" test line was heaps darker than the control line! Yay! I'm still pregnant!

Blood test (beta) is tomorrow. Looking forward to it :)