8w6d pg - Happy Baby on Board! (pic)

Yes! Baby is doing fine! He/she (herein nicknamed Malibu by his/her surfie father) is measuring 1 day ahead & was moving around happily.

I am SOOOoooooo relieved! I almost threw up in the waiting room from the nerves.

And to top off my fabulous week, my "little" nephew Nico Luca was born yesterday weighing a hefty 9.4lb!
Here he is:

Love him already xx

8d5w pg - Scan tomorrow

I've just had 2 days off work. Feeling a bit more like myself today. I tried to do a bit of yoga this morning (but had trouble doing some of the floor stretches due to my pulled butt muscle) and then went for a walk in the sunshine with DP.

Tomorrow is scan #2.

My lovely FS & (hopefully) future OB scheduled a repeat scan to help ease my fears. I'm feeling much more hopeful this time. Last time I booked myself in for a repeat scan with a private company after constant spotting & just knew there was something wrong. I don't have that same feeling this time... but it doesn't take away the nerves & fear. What if I'm wrong?

Not helping my nerves tonight is the fact that I'm currently expecting a phone call from my brother in the UK to announce the birth of his son. I'm excited for him as he's been through the wringer over the last couple of years, after his 6 year old son succumbed to Leukaemia.

We need some good news.. and I think we deserve twice as much!

8w2d pg... and struggling

Firstly I'd like to preface this post by saying: YES! I am deliriously happy that I am currently pregnant.

Now that's out of the way, here's my massive whinge:

I feel rubbish.

I'm exhausted.

I feel nauseous most of the time, but haven't yet barfed.. so I know I should be grateful.

My body aches - I still have a huge pain in my butt that I think is Pelvic Girdle Pain (my own diagnosis), and now my hips hurt when I walk up stairs.

I've had a few headaches that became absolute corkers!
I have an acne beard - like REALLY angry red zits ALL over my chin!

I'm the moodiest cow on the planet right now!

I've had meltdown after meltdown, most recently balling on my DP's shoulder as soon as I got home from work today.

I'm stuffing up at my job.

I'm stressed (and my next roster has me doing an extra 16hrs of overtime in one week as we're shortstaffed!).

I can't think straight.

I am eating like there's no tomorrow.

I have a massive gut (and no, it's not baby. I've read it's only water retention & overeating at this stage).

My clothes are bursting at the seams, and I used to be a slim person so it's getting noticeable at work.

I'm still obsessively checking my pants when I go to the bathroom for any "bad signs".

And to top it all off, my Mum went ahead and told my grandparents our news before I had a chance.. and I haven't told my brothers yet because I was waiting for our next scan later this week. I'm now stressing that my Nan (a huge fan of gossiping on the phone) will tell other members of the family and my brothers will hear it on the grapevine first. I'm also stressing my stinky cousins will get wind of the news & post something on my Facebook wall for everyone to see. I'm thinking of deleting them.

OK.. sorry for the rant. I feel better now. Until tomorrow...

But yes, once again, I still appreciate how lucky I am despite it all.

7w6d - Emotional Wreck

Having a bit of a grey day today. Feeling so emotional & stressed. I had to take myself out for a walk in the sunshine.

It was this stage last time that I started bleeding. I was interstate for work. And this weekend I have to fly interstate for work. The fear of it happening again is all-consuming. I hate this. I just want to be in ignorant bliss.

Still a week until my next scan. Hopefully I don't lose the plot by then!!

6w6d pg - First Scan (pic added)

I was supposed to have my first ultrasound tomorrow morning but, as I had feared, the clinic rang me today to reschedule as the OB had an "emergency procedure" tomorrow. I almost had a meltdown! In the end they managed to fit me in this afternoon which was a huge relief!

The Dr ended up admitting that the "emergency procedure" was a TV appearance :-/ and he was a bit embarrassed for the inconvenience it caused me.

Anyway, cut to the chase.. We have a baby, a yolk sac & a flickering heart! Yay! But the Dr knows that won't relax me as we saw a heartbeat last time & lost it after that. So he's getting me back in 2 weeks for another scan which is great.

I'm happy for now. This one looks different, looks good, & I'm going to enjoy that for now.
The nausea is also a comfort strangely.. although I haven't barfed.. yet.

6w1d PG - Careful What You Wish For

So I wanted more symptoms... and I got them!

Yesterday, 6 weeks to the day, I had the most HORRENDOUS headache I've had in years!! And along with that came the nausea. I was working out on location, trying to battle through, with everyone offering me various drugs, including Nurofen. Of course I made excuses that I was just dehydrated & I'd try to drink more water. Truth was I didn't have any paracetamol with me. Big mistake! Then I caught a lift home with some colleagues & had to sit in the middle of the back seat. That's when the nausea hit me. Great timing. I had the new girl on one side of me firing constant questions at me, and a stack of equipment the other side of me. So no escape. I managed to stifle the retching until we got back to work. Thank God! I was terrified of throwing up in the car with nowhere to turn.

Last night I was in so much pain I had to take 2 panadol. It finally eased the headache but the nausea continued all night. Today was my day off but I spent it lazing around & napping to catch up on my restless night. Fingers crossed I'm better tomorrow as I have another job on location and another trip in a car surrounded by boisterous colleagues. This time I'll have the panadol with me & a plastic bag for "emergencies". I'm dreading it.

Boobs are still mighty sore - they hurt when I roll over in bed. And my skin is breaking out again.

Be careful what you wish for!

ICSI #3 - 5w2d Blubbering Mess

I have cried roughly 12 times in the past 2 days.. for no reason.. ok, one reason was that we were watching Young Talent Time & a cute little Asian girl sang Adele's Someone Like You. I balled. I'm officially pathetic.

Boobs hurt a little.. perhaps from all the squeezing.. from me.. to see if they hurt.

That's all.