CD1

It's funny how your period starting can go from being such a massive negative (pardon the pun) one month to being such a great thing the next. This time I'm stoked - it started right on time and signals the start of possibilities.

Last month, for some monumentally STOOOOOPID reason, I had dared let myself believe I *could* be pregnant.. which is 99.99999999999999999999999999% impossible considering DH's 20 year old vasectomy and my.. well.. 40 year lack of fertility.. Why does a supposedly educated, intelligent and mature (ahem) woman talk herself into believing something so ridiculous? Because she WANTS to believe it. I have always had this fantasy that I would eventually fall pregnant naturally despite all our difficulties, just like that Facebook forum poster's cousin's friend's sister's hairdresser's sister-in-law did. If you Google "pregnant despite vasectomy" etc you WILL find a slew of people claiming it happened to them, or someone else they know. What you didn't Google was "delusional woman not pregnant despite thinking she could beat the odds and medical science". Because if you did - you'd see a giant picture of my pitiful self... NOT pregnant. So here I am trying to do many of you a favour.. here I will list all of my "pregnancy symptoms" that were actually just signs of impending AF (or imaginary altogether) and, embarrassingly, a UTI:
* Sore nipples
* Sore breasts
* Bloating
* Frequent urination
* Heavy feeling in the belly
* Strong sense of smell
* Empty feeling in the tummy - frequent hunger

I'm only listing this as I think it would have helped me when I Googled my symptoms, instead of it telling me I was up the duff and getting my hopes up. You might be.. but you also might not. I really hope you actually are.

Anyway, I digress. Today I went into the city to pick up my medications. DP and DS came in with me  for a day out but I went into the clinic alone. The pharmacist asked if I knew what drugs I was picking up which freaked me out a bit.. aren't they supposed to know? Turns out I'm also meant to be taking Luveris on top of the Gonal-f and Cetrotide, which the nurses I spoke to didn't mention. Anyway, a call later confirmed they would send it to the clinic closer to home so I can pick it up when I go for my blood test on Friday. I might be starting them medications on Friday but I think I'll call them tomorrow to confirm AF started today, just in case. My plan is different this time so I just want to make sure I don't stuff anything up.

So we went out after the clinic & had a lovely day, however I had to carry the medications around everywhere in a cooler bag with an ice pack. It was a pretty warm day and I was a bit stressed worrying about whether they were cold enough!! :-/ DH & I had a few drinks with lunch (I always have a few leading up to a cycle just in case I have to abstain for at least 9 months after ;-) but I didn't have enough water to drink so subsequently I have been nursing THE.WORST.HEADACHE I think I've ever had (apart from migraines). Rookie mistake. Thanks Progynova.